LET ME CRY

God...may i cry?
someday, i'll remember today. i have tried many times, day by day. for being waited the answer. i do know that God has a greatest planning for me. You really love me, so that's why, You gave me much attention through everything in my life. my friend Endy said that "don't give up, yik! eventhough in the last second." the sentence that can motivate me. today, i knew that life is cruel, and it needs struggle. the tears dropped on my cheeks. it seems that i'm  weak, but i'm not looser. it showed that i need a help from everybody around me.

God...may i cry?
was that the wrong way? and was i in the wrong thing?
i never showed that i was sad, they looked the storng girl in myself, a cheerful girl and always happy. but from the deepest of my heart, i felt hurt. i always thought the positive thing in my life. to found that the good thing. to knew the good people and to got the good life.

God..may i cry?
did i dissapoint my parents? was i a good child for them?
they wanted to see me as a great person, and i wanted to make them happy in september. but unfortunately, You gave the different answer for me. i'm sure that they were dissapointed to me. it's like a sword stabbed on my heart. hurt? really hurt.

God, now i'm a weak person.....let me cry till the tears can erase the sadness in my life.
as long as the sun shines, there's a hope