that's i am

i took this lyric from the song of jessie j. it can reflect what is happening to me...








I stare at my reflection in the mirror...
Why am I doing this to myself?
Losing my mind on a tiny error,
I nearly left the real me on the shelf...
"No, no, no, no... "


Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!


Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?
I forgot what to do to fit the mould, yeh!
The more I try the less it's working
Yeih yeah yeha
'Cause everything inside me screams, "no, no, no, no... "

kreativ

Hidup Ini Butuh Proses.
Lihat Saja Kupu-Kupu, Ia Bisa Terbang Tinggi Tidak Secara Instan Dapat Melebarkan Sayapnya Untuk Berada Dipuncak.
Butuh Waktu Berhari-Hari Ia Berusaha Mulai Dari Seekor Ulat Yang Hanya Bisa Bergerak Didedaunan Kemudian Menjadi Kepompong Yang Hanya Bergelantungan Diranting Pohon Kemudian Melebarkan Sayapnya Dan Terbang Namun Tak Pernah Lupa Akan Pohon Dimana Saat Ia Belum Bisa Apa-Apa.

when i looked at myself in the mirrow, i asked to myself...who is the girl who hide her shadow. told a lie and forced herself smilling to everybody.


wanna throw it away from my life, but i couldn't. pretended myself to be another one, just wanna get good feeling, but i got the bad feeling. it's so hard to be myself, but....i wanna create the good figure for me.


ASK

at the first time

...
hopefully i could find good inspiration...